Moving Forward?

Image Courtesy: ~L/Untitled Moments

I'm stuck here.
Suddenly, I'm so afraid to move forward since I'm not anymore sure about the reason of why I should make it through. But I can't go back. It's a long journey to come here. Considering many aspects, going back is not an option; that's not reasonable to do.

My eyes wander about the vast field of wheat: searching for a sign or an answer about what I should do, and find nothing. I look up to the sky. The sky is so blue and silent; no cloud number nine. The wheat bushes are hissing along with the breeze; I feel uneasy even more.

Silently, I pray to God that hopefully there will no green-eyed monster here. Because if it really exists, I will feel much more in vain. The green-eyed monster is never kind. It often times makes us end up a useless hatred and resentment.  It's disgusting.

I've made a temporary decision; I will stay here a little while and try to learn how to "enjoy" the uneasiness and undefined feelings ruffling my heart--my inner self!

Pray for me, my dear fellow, that I will soon be free from all of these confussion and ambiguity of feelings. Believe me, it's totally awful and absurd to suffer from the uneasiness of something you can't explain--something you don't even know the what or the why!



* Written for Short Story Slam Week 8.
  Also linked in The Tale Tellers and Sunday Scribblings #280.


15 comments:

Altonian | August 17, 2011 at 11:50 PM

I like this - you have captured the feeling of lonely, uncertain, unease really well. An appealing piece of prose.

Neni | August 18, 2011 at 9:37 AM

Thank you, Altonian... :)

Guilie | August 18, 2011 at 10:26 AM

I like it!! Very nicely done, a great response to the prompt. You got the angst just right... Thanks for the read! And thanks for stopping over on my blog; your comment made my day :)

Neni | August 18, 2011 at 12:10 PM

Guilie: thanks for the compliment and for stopping here also...

oldegg | August 18, 2011 at 2:58 PM

I loved the picture of the wheat and the girl being confused by the wind pushing it this way and that so that she did not know which way was forward. It fitted your words so well.

Neni | August 18, 2011 at 3:11 PM

RObin: thank you... I always love reading your comments... :)

Morning | August 18, 2011 at 8:15 PM

enjoyed it,

beautiful story.

Marbles in My Pocket | August 18, 2011 at 8:33 PM

A wonderful piece, and I believe you hit the point squarely when you say you will try and enjoy this place you find yourself in. I believe that is the key to peace, finding the good in the "now". Wonderful writing!

My week 8 story: http://charleslmashburn.wordpress.com/2011/08/18/amber-waves-of-grain/

West Lake | August 18, 2011 at 9:08 PM

eloquent and apt.
wow.

MISH | August 20, 2011 at 8:06 PM

I love the conflicting feelings your character experiences - the realisation and acceptance of being "stuck" but also the resolve to remain there and try to figure something out ! She decides to face the problem and deal with it - not run away or hide and pretend it's not happening !
A brave and positive response to a frightening situation ! Well done !

~L | August 20, 2011 at 10:06 PM

First... I love your log lay out.. And second I cried as I read this because you have captured a deep truth about this picture.... A picture really is worth a thousand words... And the words you wrote to invision a story you may have thought was fiction is the reality this picture meant to me that day my tripod, my camera and my self went soul searching in a field.... This was a one of a time life experice for me... And what I just read has brought me back to that very day as a captured moment has now thousands of word from dozens of stirrers all over the world. You have touched my spirit this morning... You write with grace...

Neni | August 20, 2011 at 10:43 PM

Morning, Marbles in Pocket,West Lake, and MISH:
thank you for stopping by here and leaving me those nice comments on the post... your comments made my day... :)

@ ~L:
Thank you for your comments... That's a compliment for me...
Yes it is: a picture really worth a thousand words... And it is a good picture so that most of people who take part in this prompt can feel the emotion (kind of uneasiness and worries) of the girl in the picture...
And to be honest, it's not purely fiction to me... I was actually writing what I feel recently... :)

A Kwee Life | August 21, 2011 at 7:06 AM

I think you paint emotions with words very well. The sort of spirals in your writing echoed the spirals in the wheat as it gets blown about in all directions. I like the wisdom too of, if "a" decision cannot be made, then choose to not make one and wait. I am enchanted with the colors and design you are using for your site. It is as lovely as your writing - they balance each other well.

Thank you for sharing.
Kwee
My FlashFiction
and My "Nameless" serial

e.a.s. demers | August 24, 2011 at 1:50 AM

such sadness and yet, such open-- almost hopeful-- honesty... well done!

Cassiopeia Rises | August 31, 2011 at 11:13 PM

Wonderful short story and image. Enjoyed reading it.


Melanie

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